I slept the back spasms away all day yesterday...felt better in that area this morning...not feeling great about going to chemo though. I can feel fluid in my lungs again...which probably means I'll have to have it drained tomorrow after chemo...this is seriously getting old...QUICKLY!
It has definitely taken a toll on me...physically and mentally...hit me hard today. It was the first time that I ever thought about punting this whole chemo crap...but I can't...I'm not a quiter.
I'm a fighter...I'm a mother...I'm a daughter...I'm a friend...I'm strong...I'm stubborn...and I'm Jo...what would people do without Jo around. My life's not the greatest right now...but I've got the greatest people in my life...so it's definitely worth the fight!
Just need to remind myself of these facts...anyway...today:
Chemo Day number.................I've lost count...lets say "kajillion"...sounds close enough to me.
Arrived at 10:30am...departed at 5:30pm...definitely the longest day of my chemo career. Lots of pre-tests & post-tests...failed most of them...therefore my detention begins tomorrow morning at 10:30am...the punishment will be a big fat needle through the back...between the ribs...into the lining of my right lung...where they will suck 1/2 to 1 liter of fluid out of my body....FOR THE 5th TIME!
I'll be able to breath again...which is a good thing...I guess...no, yes...it is a good thing. See...I'm working on my positivity...but it is VERY HARD...especially when FRUSTRATION OVERCOMETH!!!!!
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