"No Chemo for You!"...(damn chemo Nazi's)

Okay...I guess we are changing up the regiment after all...new cocktail...Doxil. I was suppose to have chemo today but the key to withstanding this drug is to stay cool...since "cool" is my middle name...I thought...no problem. Then I hear you have to keep your "body" cool...stay out of the heat and sun...take cool showers...soak feet often in cool water...all kinds of crap that doesn't gel well with summer. Not really cool when you plan to go on a float trip for the weekend. Zoey and I along with a whole group of friends have been looking forward to this trip for some time now. I don't plan on disappointing anyone including myself but especially my Zoey...we've been through to much lately...so once again, we postponed chemo until next week.

Doxil will be given only once a month...which is a bonus...but it can cause some funky side effects...the main one being a skin reaction called "Hand - Foot Syndrome". Sores and blisters that usually occur in the palms of the hands and soles of the feet...it can also occur on parts of the body where your clothes may be tight or where friction, pressure, rubbing and sweating occur...which is everywhere on me! Also, can cause sores in the mouth, fatigue and other fun side effects...but hair loss and nausea are not that common...which is another plus in my book.

I saw my Pulmonary Dr. today...he thought everything looked good...he feels that the procedure was successful but still too early to tell for sure...it could be a couple more months before I'm 100% healed from this lovely lung surgery. As of the beginning of this week, I do feel better...my breathing is good...still some shortness here and there but I can at least get around without sucking wind. I don't feel like I have fluid in my lung right now and my weight is down which are all good signs.

I plan on going back to work next week...I miss the crew...and I'm feeling up to it again. I just have to play it one day at a time...my positivity is coming back some...it helps to feel somewhat normal again...it's been so long I'm not sure if I'm even close to normal but I'll take where I'm at in this moment and run with it...(or walk very slowly).